You've lost your biggest fan, supporter and friend,
so you decided to go it alone did we?
shame you had to go to such lengths,
to feel and feed that obsession and need.

Such a bright star now jaded with deceit,
can never now be the man you were supposed to be,
with karma and guilt wrapped around your mind, body and soul,
you try to keep going when deep down you know I know.

 Are we now even with the hurt we throw?
 not ever sleeping well with what we alone know,
 time to heal and time to let go,
 Christ, I do believe what we seed, will grow.

A stroke of the pen, a roll of the dice,
a left hand turn could be paradise,
a drunken slur, an inert response,
an angry exchange has now led to 2 sides.

It doesn't matter in the scheme of things,
why we hate and what it means,(cos)
we need to embrace and need to let go of
love and jealousy, indifference and apathy.(so)

 Are we now not even, with the hurt we have thrown?
 Not ever sleeping well with what is well known.
 It's time for healing and overdue to let go,
 for I do believe what we won't seed, don't grow.

A play springs to mind, You know the one.
Othello they call it, contemporary now thou..
I won't speak in public as I have pride and shame,
in what we share and we are both to blame.

You are my brother, my kin, my alter,
my father, my son for all I know.
My nemi, my semi, my one to feed,
a symbiont circle, ouroboros indeed.

I extend my hand and hope you'll embrace,
that we are the same and will always remain,
joined at the hip as we sing to the night,
because it started as your drunken moment and an oversight.

It's something that can be fixed if we both come clean,
nothing is certain, except what it would mean,
if things were not said, and left to be.
That's the biggest shame that, You have to concede.

I forgive you and despise you, ambivalence right through,
You messed with My girlfriend and yet I love you.
And you asked for her confidence, another wrong thing to do,
surely you should know by now that I love her too?

 Can we now be even and let the hurt grow to love?
 as I need to believe that we are now big enough,
 not to fight for what we need to be happy and survive,
 because I miss you my friend and that I could never deny.



                                                      Obviously not..

                                                                              SG